The Night I Had To Let My Thread Of Hope Go

This broke my heart this morning.

I am sharing this, with permission, to say her husband’s comments are typical of an addict in denial. He’s not an addict yet he will not stop watching.

But what truly broke my heart was the fact that she has lost hope, not in herself, but in the marriage. To read more of A.R. and her struggle please visit her blog today and give her some inspiration and hope.

TRYING TO RESURRECT HOPE FROM A BROKEN MARRIAGE

In my last post, I mentioned I found pornography on my husband’s computer again. I was not going to look at his history because I didn’t want to hurt myself even more. Yet, I had this compulsion to look. I scrolled down each day. Yes, he was looking at porn weekly. Porn Hub was a site I kept on running into and so was Google images. This information did not disturb me. I have come to accept the fact that these are his “go to” sites.

I found pornography on his computer on Friday. He was out of town that whole weekend. I had keep my anger and my vomit inside of me.  I made sure this was not going to ruin my weekend with my girls. I kept on telling myself, “This is my husband’s addiction and I am not the cause.”

Late Sunday night he came home. This…

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