You know, one of the hardest things for any addict is the temptational pull to return to familiarity.
One of the things I struggled with while quitting porn was the temptation to watch, even knowing how bad it was for me both physically and mentally. I always felt like I was sinning by wanting to watch it.
And it was a daily struggle there for a while trying to decide whether or not I was sinning by being tempted to return to the familar..my escape.
But, that was not the sin. The actual sin would have been giving in to the temptation and actually watching porn.
You know, scripture tells us in many places that Christ was tempted. And that He was tempted just as we are. Now, I know the tempations the devil laid out before Jesus in the wilderness and that with every temptation He combatted to them with the Word of God… scripture.
And when the tempter came to him, he said, If thou be the Son of God, command that these stones be made bread.
But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.
Then the devil taketh him up into the holy city, and setteth him on a pinnacle of the temple,
And saith unto him, If thou be the Son of God, cast thyself down: for it is written, He shall give his angels charge concerning thee: and in their hands they shall bear thee up, lest at any time thou dash thy foot against a stone.
Jesus said unto him, It is written again, Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.
Again, the devil taketh him up into an exceeding high mountain, and sheweth him all the kingdoms of the world, and the glory of them;
And saith unto him, All these things will I give thee, if thou wilt fall down and worship me.
Then saith Jesus unto him, Get thee hence, Satan: for it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve.
Matthew 4:3-10 KJV
Now, some may call what I am about to say heresy but…in order to tempted as we are…lust had to come into the picture somewhere, right. And the only time any potential lust for Jesus would have been at the potential stoning of the woman caught in adultery…in my opinion.
You can read my other thoughts on this beautiful passage HERE.
But for this post, could Christ given us the first response to lust? Could Christ, seeing this woman mostly naked been tempted with a lustful thought and instead of dwelling on what his eyes were seeing He bends down and writes scripture in the dirt?
It truly doesn’t matter what Christ wrote. The truth is in this…He did not sin. Though He may have been tempted with thoughts, He did not sin by acting on them with everyone around or when it was just the two of them there. INTEGRITY!
My point in this post is this:
Being Tempted IS NOT a sin!
So don’t beat yourself up for being tempted.