Returning Home: A Prodigal Story

There is a parable in the Bible about a family, that consisted of a father and two sons. One day the youngest son decides it is time to try it on his own. So he goes to his father and asks for his share of the family fortune. Soon after he takes his “fortune” and… Continue reading Returning Home: A Prodigal Story

No Turning Back…..Ready?

Have you ever walked away from someone or something? I have. And I have had people walk away from me. Whether in conversation or just in life. It sucks and it can tick you off. A lot of the time I'm like what the heck did I do wrong? Did I say something that hurt… Continue reading No Turning Back…..Ready?

Seven Years

I went to Celebrate Recovery tonight. My son, Brandon wanted to go and since I've missed a few weeks I agreed 🙂 I always love the warm welcoming hugs! And well...it was chip night. After giving the opening prayer and greeting I realized that February marks the month I surrendered my porn addiction to God.… Continue reading Seven Years

Remembering My Journey: A Facebook Memory From 5 Years Ago

While leading our 12 Step Study last night for Richland Celebrate Recovery several things finally made sense as they came to me while reading the opening scriptures. The first one is the power that resides in us. We have a major power source that we never truly tap into. And the reason is we are… Continue reading Remembering My Journey: A Facebook Memory From 5 Years Ago

Step 1: We admitted we were powerless and our lives had become unmanageable

Realize my life had become unmanageable…yep! I remember that feeling, as well as the vicious cycle of saying I quit, look again, shame, guilt, feeling unloved and unworthy and then fall again and repeat.

You can’t do it on your own! Reach out! Get help! Find someone to be accountable to! A real relationship with God is the only way I found freedom!

Beauty from Ashes.

48378936_1091078494433673_2747528697085952000_oI’ve started doing the 12 steps with a group of woman who have struggled with addiction just like me. Last week we did Step One. As I went through this step, it’s easy to forget how crazy life was in addiction when your out of it, but it was good for me to reflect on it.  One of the questions that stood out to me was 6 months before you became sober how did you lie about, hide or minimized your addiction. I used to lie a lot to get what I felt I needed. I would manipulate and I would hide the fact I was acting out by getting around the filters on my computer.  When one is caught in addiction you will do anything to get your next high and who cares about anyone else. Addiction causes you to do things that you would not do when sober.

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