Things Seen Cannot Be Unseen

One of the hardest things I had to fight while quitting my 30 year addiction to porn was the images stuck in head. Even now, it's a struggle. Some times I believe that I received freedom from that ball and chain to only find myself stuck behind a fence with true freedom just on the… Continue reading Things Seen Cannot Be Unseen

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The Night I Had To Let My Thread Of Hope Go

This broke my heart this morning.

I am sharing this, with permission, to say her husband’s comments are typical of an addict in denial. He’s not an addict yet he will not stop watching.

But what truly broke my heart was the fact that she has lost hope, not in herself, but in the marriage. To read more of A.R. and her struggle please visit her blog today and give her some inspiration and hope.

TRYING TO RESURRECT HOPE FROM A BROKEN MARRIAGE

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In my last post, I mentioned I found pornography on my husband’s computer again. I was not going to look at his history because I didn’t want to hurt myself even more. Yet, I had this compulsion to look. I scrolled down each day. Yes, he was looking at porn weekly. Porn Hub was a site I kept on running into and so was Google images. This information did not disturb me. I have come to accept the fact that these are his “go to” sites.

I found pornography on his computer on Friday. He was out of town that whole weekend. I had keep my anger and my vomit inside of me.  I made sure this was not going to ruin my weekend with my girls. I kept on telling myself, “This is my husband’s addiction and I am not the cause.”

Late Sunday night he came home. This…

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Watch Yourself Or You Also May Be Tempted

Sometimes one of the hardest things one can do is try to help another up without being pulled down with them. I've had several friends tell me stories of how they gave into temptation while trying to help a friend overcome theirs. Here they are wanting so badly to help a friend in need get… Continue reading Watch Yourself Or You Also May Be Tempted

It’s a Slow Fade

The first time I heard this song I bawled my eyes out. I actually pulled over to the side of the road as I just could not concentrate. The lyrics just hit me in the gut. I am an ex-porn addict that started way too young. Be careful little eyes what you see. It's the… Continue reading It’s a Slow Fade

Reflections On My Calling

It popped up in my memories today on Facebook...on February 10th, six years ago I was sitting in a pew in a church in Alabama. I had been invited to Johnny Hunt's men conference by my pastor. He even paid for my ticket to go. Unbeknown to me the conference would be on pornography within… Continue reading Reflections On My Calling

Goodbye 2017 Welcome 2018

You know people will tell me that they love my blog because it is real, honest and about life. Real issues for real people kinda thing. And I truly appreciate the fact that many do find my blog interesting. When I started this blog, I was still struggling with a porn problem and a divorce.… Continue reading Goodbye 2017 Welcome 2018

Don’t Give Up Because Of Lost Time

There is something I have learned in the six months or so since returning to Celebrate Recovery...besides the fact that I still need it. Here it is...there are men and women, dads and moms that feel as if they have let their children down. And in a lot of ways. And I am one of… Continue reading Don’t Give Up Because Of Lost Time