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Stu’s World CXI

Hey everyone. Sorry I have been absent in writing. To be honest I’m just not in the mood right now. Things are going wonky at moment. I have so much on my mind it’s scary. But I feel I need to share some of it with you all so here goes…

I have gotten two raises in the past two months so that has helped a smidgen but not nearly enough to do all the things that need to be done.

Louisiana is the most jacked up state as far as driver’s license go. Fines are stupidly outrageous. Like I owe the state about 500. And I can not pay that until I pay for a warrant that I had no idea was even out there. $900😮 Like I said insane. Apparently I missed a court date for a ticket I had forgotten about. The only ticket I have ever gotten and I forget about it. GEEEZZZZ!

D himself owes about 5 grand in fines. So mines not bad. I can get on a payment plan for the state but only after paying the warrant off. Yeah, like that’s going to happen anytime soon.

Drake, my ride to work quit Russell Moore so I will need to move to Monroe in order to keep my job. Found 2 places that are promising but they are way too small for Angie and I , in case she does decide to move here in a year or two. She says that she wants to.

Moving to Monroe limits my time with Brandon and even Erin as their mom will more than likely not bring them to Monroe to see me. So I need a car…laughing hysterically…as I know that will not happen for a while. Because I have to take care of the other stuff first.

Ryan has almost passed all his tests for the academy and I am expecting to be at his graduation on the 19th of next month. I have already requested that Friday off. Which is payday so that will an interesting weekend to say the least. But I will be there to show my support for Ryan and I get to see the love of my life at the same time 😍 and meets Ryan’s fiance and her mom. That will be cool.

Ryan has two more tests I believe. This Monday and next. Please be in prayer for him please!

Life has been a not so happy place of late. Angie and I both have lost friends due to suicide, cancer or other illnesses. Just sucks I tell ya.

I’ve been down. Way down for me. I slipped. And I feel terrible about. After all these years…guilt and shame crept back in and spiralled into depression. Trying real hard to pull myself back up. That’s the real reason for not writing new stuff I guess. Feeling the guilt won’t allow me to as then I would then feel like a hypocrite.

And that is the last thing I want to do. But it’s me. It’s the truth. being honest is not being a hypocrite. Actually it is the total opposite. I set out to always be honest with my posts. So there you have it. I failed. I may have let some of you down. I’m sorry. Please forgive me.

So with that out in the open I will inform everyone that I will be answering more of Charity’s questions about porn but they will be shared on my blog instead of hers. As it appears she has let the words of some of her blogging peers to not write anymore.

Now you may be asking yourself why in the world would i want to answer her other questions about the one subject that I slipped back into. Well, because I did slip back and I am clawing my way back up. I know the dangers of this trust me. But her questions are very valid ones. And people need to know.

Women whose spouses struggle with porn need to have answers to their questions even when they are not asking them. And men who have struggled or are struggling need to know the damage it causes to their marriage or partner. Plus they need to know that if they fall even 11 years after becoming free that falling does NOT define them.

But let me change the subject for a few minutes.

I have just tried D. Squatch soap for the first time. I seriously got tired of seeing the commercials. So I bought this…

And Oh My Gosh. I bought it Friday. I have never had so much lather from a bar of soap and the smell. It is now Sunday and the whole house smells like wood barrel bourbon. Love it. Not going back to other soaps. Just saying.

And for you ice cream lovers out there…

This is amazing. Peach ice cream with chunks of peaches😮😋

And this little Black Saddlebag decided to hang with me for about ten minutes the other day. Even let me get close enough for this…

So even with all the bad I still find some enjoyment😊

Prayers for myself, Angie and all the stressors she is under, Charity as she just lost her Uncle and will soon be saying goodbye to her dad, Ryan Callahan and his family and our fellow bloggers would be greatly appreciated. We never truly know what others are going through at any given moment unless it is shared.

With that said our Blogging Prayer Group is still up and praying for one another. If you would like to join us please send me an email to

Oh and these kittens are just too much😂😂

Their favorite place to sleep😂

11 thoughts on “Stu’s World CXI”

  1. Hi Stu, thank you for your honesty. The truth of the matter is that we all slip from time to time, in different areas where we may have weaknesses. It’s a slip, you’re not staying there, nor are you or the rest of us going back to that which we once were. It hurts bad when we slip and that is a good thing. If it didn’t hurt, we’d have a problem. We confess our sin, we climb back out, forgiven, and we run the Journey again. This is not to make light of slips, but like you said, our slips, infrequent as they may be, are not who we are. There is nothing that Satan enjoys more than keeping us down when we don’t have to be. Slips remind us of who we once were and who we are now, imperfect beings in ourselves, following Jesus, who was sinless. We are both sanctified (in Jesus) and being sanctified (in ourselves) at the same time. I can forgive you because I also need forgiveness, daily. Like Amy said, “Hang in there”, regroup and continue to more forward like the Apostle Paul said he did. Blessings brother!

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  2. I see my comment did not go through on this post. So, I will try again. God had to remind me recently, this is not the end of your story. So, I will pass that thought right along to you. And add to it: Failure is never final. God is still writing your story. We all fail in some form or fashion. You are not a hypocrite! That’s just one of those lies the devil loves to sling at us when we mess up. When you fall 7 times, get up 8. Praying with you my friend. We gonna make it! 🤗💜

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  3. Stu I just read this…….take comfort always brother that we can come to the LORD and lay our flesh desires before HIM and ask for forgiveness…….and HE forgives us! HE washes us clean……Psalm 51. But I personally think it is wonderful that you are completely honest here when you say, I just don’t feel like writing! I sure get that. Ask the LORD to give you the words……you have no idea how many times I have said myself: “LORD, I got nothing!”

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