Twenty five years ago, I let a coworker have my Student Bible. She was going through a rough spot in life.
Well the other day I get a message on Messenger from her. She asked if I worked at First Guaranty Bank in Hammond. The name rang a bell but it wasn’t until she mentioned our boss at the time that it really clicked.
We chatted for a long time. She is now happily married to a Godly man. They go to church and pray together holding hands. Hearing this made my heart so happy.
During the conversation she reminded me that I let her have my Bible. I said yes it’s your now. She said no it is yours. That Bible was given to you by someone on purpose and you should have it back😮
So today it came back to me. I opened it up and here is what I found…a forgotten letter I wrote God 29 years ago…
For those that can not read my handwriting…this is what it says..
I want to see the future, but because of my past I can’t even live in the present. My past is so bombarded in my mind by demons trying to keep me down, it’s working. Depression comes to me like a flood. It is was not for Laura Parker I would go bonkers.
My life lies in shambles but I can’t even pick up a feather out of the pillow on the floor. The only one who can pick up everything is You. But I have to give you the go ahead. For some reason I can’t give my life away.
I WANT TO KNOW WHY
I WANT TO KNOW YOU
Wow! I had so forgotten about that. What’s sad is I have forgotten about Laura Parker as well. In my life a reason and for a season.
I am so glad this Bible was able to give Rochelle comfort during her time of need.
I am also glad to have it back. I always write in my Bibles and this one was/is no exception. And I usually wrote the date following the note. The earliest one I have found so far was back in 1990…4 years out of high school. And it is in 1 Corinthians chapter 7. And yeah it’s where Paul is addressing sexual sin. See…I have had this struggle forever.
What started at age 12 was still there 8 years later. And stayed for most of my adult life
But back to the letter. The feather was in reference to how tired I was spiritually and emotionally. Always fighting and always giving in to temptation. A constant roller coaster and I was at my wits end apparently.
I wanted to give God control but at the same time I wanted to hold onto things. Sound familiar?
I finally gave God control. And what a difference He made. It took a long time before I would do it though…sadly.
But I took some things back. My old man drug the lake again. I’ve got to kill that old man to ensure the new man can thrive.
Anyway, I just felt like sharing this with you all. Have a great evening😊