So much stuff happened that week. From meeting Ted DiBiase, Kerri from Kerri Chronicles and Laura Thompson to me getting up on that stage with shaking knees to share my story.
This was in my Facebook memories this morning…
Just want to say thank you to all my friends who prayed for me today. I would love to tag you all in this post but there are too many of you who prayed for me to have strength today. It was by your prayers that I was able to walk on that stage and speak. I spoke from my heart. It was not easy for I was nervous and I know my voice cracked..and yes I had to stifle the tears as I spoke especially when I shared how God spoke to me about my addiction and how it was keeping his daughters from a relationship with him.
But coming off that stage and getting that first hug from a gentleman that said thank you so much…you have given me hope and an inspiration, made it ALL worth it. And then the next hug and the next hug I came to realize that I did what God wanted me to do.
Though the turnout was not as big as Dave and I had hoped for. It was, as Ted put it, exactly as God planned. There were no salvation experiences tonight but several rededicated their lives to the Lord tonight. Praise God!
Thank you Angie for calling me just to say I am praying for you right before I went on stage. Thank you Pastor Dave and Laura for the opportunity to share and be a part of this!
I will forever remember that experience, the hugs given and the words spoken into my life that weekend as it has given me the strength to continue sharing my story on stages, one on one and in group settings over the years. Because that is what God wants me to do.
It is by one changed heart at a time that we will win this war over porn, sex-trafficking and using people for own selfishness. It’s the same tactic the devil uses. He hooks one and then that person goes hey check this out. Then so on and so on.
It is time to take back what the devil stole from these people by sharing Christ and what He has done for each of us…one changed heart at a time.
Me and Ted DiBiase
This picture really shows how little I weighed back then. I was a skeleton…lol
Ted is such a humble man. I praise God for the chance to meet him, hear his story in person and just hang out with him.
*Some of what I shared on the stage that night is mixed into the Dear Porn Star: Please Forgive Me post because the things that happened in that post technically happened months before it was put to “ink”. I was honestly scared to write about it. I felt people would run from me going awwwhhhh!!! with their hands flailing in the air. But it was that post that brought my blog into the so called limelight as it went viral on various forums.
It brings to mind this verse from Isaiah…
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord .
Isaiah 55:8 KJV
God may tell us to do something that makes no sense in our eyes but in His it’s the perfect thing to do 😊
It has truly been a journey. A journey of sorrow, anger, resentment, failings, joy, forgiveness, victories and hope. A journey that has brought many out of the depths of porn because I was willing to share my story.
God bless guys!