Man, can things just take a freaking break. I am honestly just really tired.
I let the prayer group know the other day that my car broke down. I had a ride to work…supposedly. That fell through. No, I’m not blaming them at all. Just aggravavting. So at moment I have missed work two days. Twenty hours of pay.
And as of right now the mechanic has not been able to look at my car due to having to finish the cars in front of mine. Totally understandable. I’m hoping he can atleast find out what’s wrong with it today though.
My life is a true roller coaster…but whose isn’t?
I sent Angie a message checking on her three days ago. She called me last night and said that she couldn’t respond to my message because she knew that if she talked to me that I would have driven to Shreveport to make sure she was ok.
But then she said I should have because I know your concern for me would be genuine. I said of course it would be because I love and and yes you’re right I would have driven there and held you until you felt safe.
There is so much to her side of the story that I can’t divulge. Please just pray for this amazing woman! Forget what she means to me. Pray because of what she means to God!
I so hate family drama BS. Just saying.
I also have another friend who is need of prayer. She lost her husband last year. It’s been tough…and like Angie…she’s tired. Her name is Teresa.
We had actually started seeing each other but I just couldn’t get to the place she needed me to be. I’m not ready. May never be…I guess.
And I am still fighting my war against pornography. Right now it would be so easy to just lose myself in the fake world of sex. That is how I USED to deal with things.
I can’t do that. I can’t! I can’t! I can’t!
Back to the car thing. The mechanic just called. The timing chain broke. Two thousand dollars worth of repairs on a car that is barely worth a grand. Ughhhhhh!!!!!
That’s enough for now. I have some thinking to do…