Stu’s World

Posted on by Stuart L. Tutt

Man, can things just take a freaking break. I am honestly just really tired.

I let the prayer group know the other day that my car broke down. I had a ride to work…supposedly. That fell through. No, I’m not blaming them at all. Just aggravavting. So at moment I have missed work two days. Twenty hours of pay.

And as of right now the mechanic has not been able to look at my car due to having to finish the cars in front of mine. Totally understandable. I’m hoping he can atleast find out what’s wrong with it today though.

My life is a true roller coaster…but whose isn’t?

I sent Angie a message checking on her three days ago. She called me last night and said that she couldn’t respond to my message because she knew that if she talked to me that I would have driven to Shreveport to make sure she was ok.

But then she said I should have because I know your concern for me would be genuine. I said of course it would be because I love and and yes you’re right I would have driven there and held you until you felt safe.

There is so much to her side of the story that I can’t divulge. Please just pray for this amazing woman! Forget what she means to me. Pray because of what she means to God!

I so hate family drama BS. Just saying.

I also have another friend who is need of prayer. She lost her husband last year. It’s been tough…and like Angie…she’s tired. Her name is Teresa.

We had actually started seeing each other but I just couldn’t get to the place she needed me to be. I’m not ready. May never be…I guess.

And I am still fighting my war against pornography. Right now it would be so easy to just lose myself in the fake world of sex. That is how I USED to deal with things.

I can’t do that. I can’t! I can’t! I can’t!

Back to the car thing. The mechanic just called. The timing chain broke. Two thousand dollars worth of repairs on a car that is barely worth a grand. Ughhhhhh!!!!!

I’m screwed!

That’s enough for now. I have some thinking to do…

Published by Stuart L. Tutt

I am just a man who has suffered through a lot, just like most. But now I am seeking God's will for my life. and trying to be a Godly father to my two children.

51 thoughts on “Stu’s World”

  2. Oh Stu! Life is tough, rocky and can be soooo (that word)! I learnt this week that the word race from Hebrews 12:1 comes from the Greek word “agon” which we translate as agony – a perfect description of what it is you are facing. Good news – you, Angie, Teresa and the rest of us will get through it!

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  4. Hey Stuart! If your job isn’t too far, what about an uber? I mean, it might be worth it for the cost of an hour or two pay AND so you don’t risk losing your job? I don’t know.

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    1. That’s a really good idea! When our car broke down, my husband was gonna use an uber to get to work. Thankfully things worked out to where he didn’t have to, but it was a good option to have 🙂

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      1. It might be worth it. 🤔 The devil fights us so hard! Don’t let him win Stuart. {{hugs}}

        Like Dory (Finding Nemo) says, “There’s always another way!” 😉

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  5. Praying for you brother, I know things can be very hard sometimes especially when so much happens at the same time. Keep trusting, never give up, keep looking to the One who will get you through. God bless!

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  8. “I’m screwed!”

    Not in the name/authority of Jesus Christ! Life’s hard right now, pray hard brother. Let it all out to Him!

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      1. I know that sounds kind of cheap.. “pray about it” but I’ll tell on myself… I used to pray for an hour. Sometimes longer. Just being very detailed and talking to God about everything and everyone that came to my head. I’d pray until I felt like I had nothing left to say. I’m passing this on.

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  9. I’d definitely be trying the uber option. Even if it costs you a couple of hours wages, you’re still left with 8 hours pay versus nil, not to mention, your employer will be impressed with your determination.

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  14. I too will pray for y’all.

    And just an aside.
    We live in China/Beaumont Texas.

    You mentioned Shreveport, and I’ve hauled fuel there to Barksdale A. F. B.

    Do you live over here in southeast Texas near us?

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    1. Thank you for the prayers brother! They are greatly appreciated!

      I live in Northeast Louisiana now. I grew up in Shreveport. It’s home to me 🙂

      I used to play golf on the Barksdale golf course.

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  15. I am praying for you, Stu. Such challenges! None of which are too big for God. Most importantly, your spirit! May He draw you even nearer than you’ve ever been. ❤ He does love you, and cares so much about every detail! Including your friends and their details.

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  16. “Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ: Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory: Receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls.”
    ‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭1:6-9‬ ‭KJV‬‬

    Keep enduring brother!

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  17. Stu, your life right now is “my goodness, what else can happen?” I just want you to know that this is a mountain that God can move, not you, so I wish you peace as God builds your faith. I will continue to pray for you for God to work everything out.

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  18. Here from Dee’s feature post.
    I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling. When it rains it pours. I’ve learned to accept it.
    It WILL just make you stronger in the end.
    I know people are mentioning Uber and you said that there isn’t any in your area. It’s not my thing. I don’t trust it at all, and I’ve been told that the prices have gone up, too. What about a cab? Is that a possibility? Like someone said – it might cost a bit, but in the end, it should be cheaper than your full day of work (hopefully).
    Are you able to just get a new car instead? Or maybe have it checked by someone else?
    Prayers to all.

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    1. Thank you. I have checked into the cab scenario. It’s 70 round trip. Way too much money.

      I sort of have a new vehicles lined up to purchase if I can get to work this week and keep my job.

      Thank you for your prayers! They are greatly appreciated!!

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