Remembering My Journey: A Facebook Memory From 5 Years Ago

While leading our 12 Step Study last night for Richland Celebrate Recovery several things finally made sense as they came to me while reading the opening scriptures.

The first one is the power that resides in us.

We have a major power source that we never truly tap into. And the reason is we are scared to. And, honestly, the main thing behind our fear is in the fact that have no idea what type of change or effect that power will have on us.

Think about it. If you had told me fours years ago..”Stuart, get prepared. God is fixing to change you. He is fixing to radically change everything. You will lose your wife to get your attention. Then He will start working on your heart and your addictions. He will give you new friends. He will ask you to speak out against the one thing you do not have the power on your own to overcome. You will give your testimony on that addiction and be an accountability partner for many. It will hurt. It will down right suck, but God will see you through your weakness by His power. Just trust Him.” I would have laughed in your face and called you a few names like stupid or an idiot.

But had you said that, you would have been telling me the truth. This all happened or rather is happening now. I have lost my wife. I have given my testimony on a lifetime addiction to pornography several times now and still do as the Lord reveals new things that have happened to me. There was a lot of things that I had suppressed into a very dark unremembering part of my mind.

But as Philippians 4:13 states I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.

The key word in that verse is through. We are the conduit in which Christ’s strength flows if we allow ourselves to be.

He does give us the strength to overcome temptation IF we ask. He does give us strength to stand up in front of people we do not know and talk about our secret life we have struggled with IF we ask. Trust me, I did. Because I know in my own strength I would not have made it up the steps..I would have chickened out. But Christ gave me strength to get up those steps, speak and show what His strength, His power, has done in my life.

The other thing was change. Be ready for it because it is going to happen. But only in God’s timing. For there are lessons to be learned along the way.

In Ephesians 4:23 it says “And be renewed in the spirit of your mind.” Renewal is change. It is a natural course for those who earnestly seek God. You can not seek God and not change.

I sought God and He rewarded me with freedom.

Hebrews 11:6
But without faith it is impossible to please Him; for he that comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is the rewarder of them that diligently seek Him.

If you want freedom from your addiction diligently seek God and tap into the power source available. You will see change and you will have the power to overcome through Jesus.

18 thoughts on “Remembering My Journey: A Facebook Memory From 5 Years Ago”

  1. In reference to what you wrote: “We have a major power source that we never truly tap into. And the reason is we are scared to. And, honestly, the main thing behind our fear is in the fact that have no idea what type of change or effect that power will have on us.”
    Change is scary. And even more scary when we think that we’re dealing with Someone more powerful than we are, Who controls our very lives; and that things are not going to go our way.
    Satan works change, too, but he lulls us into thinking this is change we want, that things are going to go more our way.
    We know up front that we’re going to have to do an about-face if we want to obey God: Turn away from things we love, things we find joy in, and give up our “fun.”. We’re scared to approach something new because the joy won’t be the same. We simply cannot imagine the peace and joy God has for us, so we often turn away. Such a shame.
    But God. God works within faith, and He rewards even the smallest of steps.
    This is such a powerful testimony you wrote, Stuart. Thank you for sharing it with us, for encouraging us to make our own itty-bitty changes, for giving us a peek at the wonders and power God has for us when we step out.

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    1. Thank you for this awesome comment Kathy!

      Yeah, the devil definitely does that. He’s a liar and a thief!

      Repentance! All that “fun” was bad news. I’m more happy sober with integrity than I ever was having “fun”.

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  2. Thanks for sharing your testimonial Stuart, things like this is very hard to do, but I think that when we step out in faith and do them, God strengthens us and He upholds us and give us the power to do even more. It’s amazing when we looked back and see where God has brought us from. Your testimonial is very powerful and it only makes me stop and think about the direction I was heading in, until I truly came to know God. Blessings!!

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  3. Amen Stuart !! I know exactly where you were standing before everyone. I was there way back in early 2007. Once I stood up and talked I knew something was good because I prayed and asked God for help to over come my drug habit. I have never went backwards either just like you Stuart. Yes, we all can do everything through God. Ask and you shall receive !!

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  4. I pray for you to continue blessing others with your words Stuart. What you wrote is an inspiration. It makes the reader (me and others) look into our own lives because we all have something that we can ask for His help with. Maybe we have been putting it off, but now after reading your words, we can feel more ready to push forward. God bless you always! πŸ™πŸ€—

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