Goodbye 2018 And Hello 2019

Well 2018 was both awesome and disheartening for me at the same time!

Allow me to break it down so you will understand why I say that…

Blog wise, 2018 was the most amazing year! Awards, tags and challenges…oh my! What an honor and privilege to be nominated and to participate!

But what made the year awesome was making such great friends! Friends that support me, encourage me and yeah… pray for me! That is awesome because we ALL need prayer and encouragement! And that my dear friends is way more important than the stats.

But the stats have been crazy…

I mean just look. That is huge!

Thanks to you all, there are more likes in a day now, than I had views in a month in previous years.

And some days there are more views in said day than I would have in months.

I enjoy the likes, as it means you actually do like what I write but it’s the comments you all make that mean so much. Your encouraging words, saying you will pray for me and just getting to know each other a little better is awesome.

Thank you all for such an amazing year!

I would like to share some of your favorite posts based on the number of views, as I do not know if it is possible to look up posts by the number of likes.

Here are your top 10 favorite posts:

From A Porn Scene Mentality To Intimacy With Your Wife (Written in 2017)

Things Seen Cannot Be Unseen

Our Past Does Not Define Who We Are

Reflections On My Calling

Dear Porn Star: Please Forgive Me (Still five years later and the most read post…thank you!)

Dear Hollywood That Is Not How It Works

3.2.1. Quote Me! Love

Breaking The Chains: One Link At A Time (which I need to update)

When The Walls Tear You Down (Officially written in 2017)

Porn Warps Everything

Now for the disheartening aspect of 2018. Not only am I still single..lol but I lost two jobs, roommate left without paying his part of the bills and I almost became homeless.

And I have been fighting a silent war within myself the whole time. A few of you may have picked on it but then again maybe not.

A war that is only won by feeding the side I want to thrive….my flesh or my spirit. It’s a constant war for many of us even years after finding freedom.

Don’t get me wrong. My children, Brandon and Erin have blessed my life. And 2018 was no exception! Actually that part was better as I was able to spend more time with them on a daily basis, but when I get to the house and there is no one here…it hits. Sometimes not so bad and then other times….

The holidays are the hardest.

And I need to apologize to my prayer group and all of you for not reaching out and asking for prayer. Also, I didn’t read as many of your posts as normal, nor did I comment as much and I’m sorry. I just fell into a depressed state and stayed there for a while.

This is what I did to occupy my time some nights…

Brandon helped me glue it together on the 31st thru midnight and into the first 15 minutes of the New Year! Now to frame it and hang it somewhere ❤

So with the closing of an emotionally “bad” year, the completion of The Justice League puzzle, a sweet kiss on the check from my son at midnight and your support I look forward to the new year!

No resolutions…just a word. Intentional!

Intentional with my blog…

Intentional with my kids…

Intentional with my faith…

Intentional with my integrity…

Intentional with my prayer time…

Thank you all for your loving kindness! You truly will never know what it means to me ❤

42 thoughts on “Goodbye 2018 And Hello 2019”

  1. Intentional again. This word and 2019. Only God knows why, but I hope we are attentive and obedient. And Stu, even when you didn’t ask for prayer support, we still prayed for you. God’s got you covered.

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  2. Those numbers are amazing as they impressive! Many congrats, hard work truly pays off.

    Intentional and dating. Because we also want to be intentional with that. It lead me to think of the people that are dating for fun, or dating for comfort, that’s dating without purpose. Intentional dating is dating with a purpose and a plan. It has definition and structure. Where’s it going to lead me, marriage, kids, do I see myself with this person forever? Intentional dating.
    It’ll happen, God has the woman for you dear friend. Patience. I know it’s not easy but patience, the Lord will help you with it.

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    1. Thank you Ana for this wonderful comment. I have dated for fun and it was FUN! And I have dated someone that I wanted to be with the rest of my life. I do prefer the latter. As you said it has purpose and meaning. I want to be intentional in my dating as well!

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      1. Haha! I know the type of fun dating that is. What a waste of time at the end! 🤦🏽‍♀️ Yes, when we get older we realize our mistakes in dating and find that intentional dating is the best route.
        It’ll come dear friend. 😊🙏🏽 All in God’s timing.

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        1. I did learn a lot about myself during that fun dating both sexually and emotionally. And it was that I wanted more than just that. Thank the Lord. We ended it because we both knew it wasn’t going to work out for the long haul.

          I’m praying His timing is soon 🙂

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            1. I appreciate the prayers Ana!

              And it’s sort of.fimmy that tonight I got hit on by one of the ladies that works at Subway. She sees me and comes from behind the counter and gives me a hug. We chat while she is making my wrap and then gives me another hug and small rub on my back as I was leaving.

              I get in the car and I’m like ok that was freaking weird 😂😂

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  3. Hey Stu…..

    Thank you for being “intentional” with all your posts! You realize that it takes commitment and time, in spite of what is going on in your life! I agree there is such a struggle with flesh vs. spirit. But trust that the LORD always wins! Hold on tight in this New Year! Remember, there are many here who do care about you…….ask and I am sure many of us will come alongside you in specific prayer. You can reach out to me anytime……..blessings and I will pray for a good New Year for you!! Putting you always now on my prayer list!

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  4. I’m a little behind. Trying to get caught up. I hope your spirits have been lifted some since this last post. Here’s to a brighter & better 2019! Cheers & hugs, my friend! My thoughts and prayers are with you!

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  5. Praising the Lord with for the blessings He shed on you!
    Praying with you for those things you are praying for, and with the Holy Spirit who prays for those things that we do not know we should pray for.
    Jesus and the Holy Ghost are praying for you with moanings and groanings that cannot be uttered. No one knows your dark days better! His Light is such a Comfort. 🙂
    He loves you brother!

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    1. Thank you for the prayers Gail. They are so appreciated!

      They do know my dark hours and days better than anyone. They know what started them even when I do not. Thanks for the reminder of that.

      God bless you Gail.

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