I know I have several non Christian folks here. I would like to say something to you with all the love in my heart.
Maybe you turned to pornography as a result of sexual abuse. And if so, I am so sorry that happened to you! I have been there and I understand to an extent of what you have felt. And I say extent because each story is different.
But please know it was NOT your fault. The person who molested or abused you was dealing with their own hurts, pain and anger issues and had not turned to the one thing that could help them.
Maybe you accidentally found a form of pornography and just kept going back to look at it again and again to get that buzz. Now you are hooked and it has progressed. It was NOT your fault you found it. But it was you who chose to go back and look again. Now you are hooked and see no way out. There IS a way out.
Maybe you were just wanting to figure out how to “enhance” sex with your partner and you just fell into the cycle. I’m sorry. That was me too. The problem with this is that porn does not “enhance” your sex life! And I don’t care what anyone says to the contrary it destroys. But, there IS a way out.
You see I know what it is like. I have been there. I had that accidental find of a Playboy mag. Wasn’t my fault it was there. Nor was it my fault I found it.
It wasn’t my fault that I was molested twice. Once as a child and once as a teen. When I got married I hated porn but yet I went there to find a way to spice up our sex life instead of trying to understand what my wife needed as a whole to make our sex life better.
The difference between you and I? I have a personal relationship with God through Jesus Christ. I have a God who loves me so much that He sent His one and only son to die on a cross. To be beaten so bad his friends could not recognize him had it not been for the sign above his head.
He died. Was buried. And was raised from the dead. The one and only person to fulfill the prophesy of the prophets of old.
It is through Him that I have freedom. It is through Him that I have forgiveness. It is through Him that I can look at a woman or a man and not look at their bodies with all the lustful thoughts I can muster up. But I see all people in a different way now.
I pray daily to God for His protection over my life and to protect my mind so I will not look at porn. I have a hedge, a wall, around me placed there by my friends who pray for me on a daily basis.
If you would like to change your life and your patterns of addiction, won’t you consider a personal relationship with the one who created you and loves more than anyone else ever will or can? Please feel free to message me if you would like to talk about God and how to have that relationship with Him.
Originally posted August 19th, 2013