Last year a friend of mine and I were talking about a bunch of different things that go with being married and/or in long term relationships.
I said I miss it 😦
You see, some men actually appreciate their singleness. They can come and go when they want. They can spend their money on what they want. They can have sex with anyone…
Oh wait…some men that ARE married do those things too! Very sad…
But I’m not like other men. I’m different! I’m unique!
People always ask me how I can be lonely when God is right there beside me everytime I mention that I suffer from loneliness…well…
Here are a few of the reasons.
Some of these I shared with my friend that day…
I miss helping with the dishes when one is washing and the other drying and then both of us put them in their appropriate places.
I miss doing the laundry. Yeah….I know…I’m weird. But by me taking that task completely away from her, she could have some me time.
I miss coming home to the same person every day.
I miss helping with dinner.
I miss working in the yard together.
I miss going shopping while holding hands or walking with our arms around each other. Or walking behind her, intentionally, waiting for her to put her hand behind her back and wiggle her fingers to let me know they are lonely and want my hand. ❤
I miss reading the Bible together.
I miss going to church and growing spiritually…together.
I miss sitting on the couch watching a movie with her leaning back on my chest with my arms around her.
I miss having her laying down on my lap so I can play with her hair or rub her back.
I miss the talks til the wee hours of the morning.
I miss just being in each other’s presence.
I miss the little texts that simply said I love you.
I miss those messages that said I want you tonight. You know the ones with a little tongue emoti or the one with the smiley face in the bath tub 🙂
I miss falling asleep with her in my arms at night.
I miss waking up before she did and just sit at the edge of the bed watching her sleep with a smile on my face while the words you are so beautiful are playing in my mind.
I miss showering together.
I miss washing her hair while in said shower. And yes, I miss washing her body and her washing mine. I mean come on, you don’t shower together just to conserve water, right?
I miss the emotional, spiritual and physical intimacy that comes from making love to the same woman.
I miss home.
They say home is where your heart is.
Well, I know where my eternal home is and my heart is set there, but on this Earth, until Glory…my home is not four walls but in the heart of one very special woman.
Some of you may think I’m suffering from codependency. But here is what codependency means…
It is an emotional and behavioral condition that affects an individual’s ability to have a healthy, mutually satisfying relationship. It is also known as “relationship addiction” because people with codependency often form or maintain relationships that are one-sided, emotionally destructive and/or abusive.
I don’t fit into that definition..
And here I am betting, that with the title and the photos you thought I would be talking sex…
That may come later…maybe 🤔