Oh, you could feel the tension in the room. It was like one of those Scooby Doo cartoon where you had to cut the fog with a knife. That is how it felt when a bunch of us got together and discussed the Stryper: Against The Law album shortly before heading to Dallas to see them live.
Everyone was saying how awesome is was except this one song, with a curse word in it. And I agreed the album was awesome…the WHOLE album including this song.
Everyone was like how can you actually like that song. It has a curse word in it for crying out loud. I simply answered because it’s real…it’s how I feel.
Half the time I don’t know what the hell I’m feeling. Sometimes I feel like I’m right at the edge and I’m fixing to fall and God or one of you guys pull me back. But it’s like I’m always there at the edge trying to figure out what to do next. Do I keep going or give up?
They understood then why the song spoke to me, as many of them knew my struggles. They may not have approved of the word in the song, but they got it.
I guess Michael, the lead singer felt bad or something because when they play the song live the word is changed to heck instead of hell.
The song still speaks to me, though it’s not my favorite off the album anymore. But it is still a real honest look at life. A life that can be hard to navigate even with God. So yeah, that “don’t know what the hell your feeling” is real.
And it’s kind of where I am right now to be honest…