What if I told you that I love you? Would you take those words to heart or possibly crush mine?
I have to wonder how long would it take before you were to realize that my words were sincere and heart felt. Is it possible that you are afraid of the change in your life that could take place upon accepting my love? Maybe that is really the reason that first initial I Love You is so hard.
Maybe, just maybe, there has been so much going on in your life that the thought of someone actually loving you is absurd. So you stifle your own feelings behind your wall…and on accident do the one thing to someone else that you do not want done to yourself.
Maybe it is the I have been hurt too many times to allow myself to love again. I can’t allow myself to feel this way again so I am just going to shut this person out so I don’t get hurt. I get that one. I have been there. Still am to be honest with you.
I am afraid to say those words myself. I have been hurt many times in my life from people I loved or cared about. So I am very cautious when I say those words to someone. When I say them now I mean it. I know that it could open more wounds than I have to strength to deal with. I know I have the potential of being hurt worse than ever before. I know that I may not be loved in return as well. Yet, I also know that it could possibly be myself opening up to a person who will truly love as God designed it to be and not what the world calls love. A love that will walk with me through the ups and downs…not just the ups and leave when the downs come. For true love is patient. A love that will not intentionally seek out to hurt me. For true love is kind. A love that will stand with me as I stand for integrity. For true love does not rejoice in iniquity but rejoices in the truth.
And I realize that in order to have that type of love from someone I must first exhibit that type of love to them as well. For true love does not seek its own.