You say that God will not forgive you for what you have done, so you run and run and try to hide from the ONE who sees all; past, present and future. You run from the ONE who loved you enough, that while you were yet a sinner He sent His Son Jesus to die for the remission of your sin (Romans 5:8). You know… that thing you have done that keeps you running from the ONLY one who truly loves you as you are.
Well..I say STOP running and hit your knees! Seek God! Repent, ask for the forgiveness that IS found in the blood of Christ!
Here’s a list of sins (or wrongs if you prefer), there will be some left out I’m sure, but I’ll also name some that might offend, BUT ALL ARE COVERED AND FORGIVEN BY THE BLOOD OF CHRIST! (Colossians 2:13)
Thievery, murder (whether physical or verbal), fornication (sex before marriage), adultery (sex with anyone or anything outside of the marriage bed, so this will include pornography and masturbation), lying, covetousness (wanting something that is not yours), homosexuality (the bible is clear that men and women will give up the natural, meaning God given, desires and women will lust after women and men after men (Romans 1:26,27), idolatry (putting anything above God), treachery (which goes with lying), boastfulness (which includes pride), sexual and physical abuse of anyone, alcoholism, drug use, indulgence (over eating) anger, hatred, lust (this will include undressing that chick or guy who just walked past you) and having an unforgiving heart. The ONLY thing the Blood of Christ will not cover is the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit and His prompting to accept who Christ is and accept as your Savior. EVERYTHING else is FORGIVEN!!!
So stop running and accept Christ as your personal Savior! Find true freedom from your addiction and sin through Christ! Will your life be a bed of “roses”? Probably not..roses have thorns. Will you still have storms in your life? Yep, but now you will have a personal relationship with the captain of the ship to steer you through it. Will you still struggle with sin? Heck yeah, but now you will be forgiven. The walk of a Christian is a daily, moment by moment lifestyle that requires prayer, studying Scripture to renew your mind and new friends (Christian friends) that will lift you up in prayer and be there when needed.
If you want to accept Christ and do not know how let me know, I’ll be more than happy to either pray with you or get someone to.